Wednesday, January 13, 2010

sealed the trail

i sealed the trail that once we traversed
when the dusk of every summer comes in
i'll hold your hand and cross the bridge towards the past
all will be quiet, all will be calm
the night will be too long
like thieves in the dark
we'll catch the old spark of our eyes
until the dawn of spring
breaks the remaining ember of the night.

rod 1/13/10

Monday, December 14, 2009

will still shine

The past few days I felt relieved. I was emancipated, literally and "figuratively". I said what I want and I meant what I said. I know things will not change in an instant, remnants of joy and wanting will still linger. After all, nothing has really changed. I'm the same, I feel the same. I keep on saying that I don't have resources but I know I have everything someone may want. I am lucky than someone else. I am blessed that anyonelse. I wasn't surprised when someone is still reading my blog although that person was already warned not to. I won't opposed that person reading my blog. I know that God will bless that person the same way God has blessed us.

new born star

someday the old trees will bow down
the earth will feed its roots
the night will worship the dawn
we will shine
like the new born star
i will shine


rod

Monday, September 21, 2009

someday

someday your name will be an epitaph
embraced by withered grasses
looked upon by the sun

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

follicles

i can touch your hair like that
like i never i did before
maybe that was the first
I don't know when will be the last
strands that flows into my finger
memory will linger
like follicles deep within the dermis
...everything has been changed


rod

Sunday, August 30, 2009

brb

time really flies and I failed to realize that I already missed more than a month writing in my blog. I don't have 'good' things to write about and it's better to let other things keep it to myself. I'll promise I'll be back. :-)

Saturday, July 18, 2009

trusting

tell me how to believe you
and wash away the doubts
I have for every single words you utter
it wasn't once or twice
can't even remember them all

it a sick cycle
a bland sorry
and here it comes again

believing, trusting and having faith
I can give them all
but these things will wane
and nothing will be left
you'll left behind
nothing to hold on
no one will trust you again
the way I do it to you.


rod
07/18/09

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

on missing and wanting

The hardest part of wanting someone is that the person you want doesnt want you the way you want it to be. Missing and wanting are not mutually exclusive. In most instances, they go hand in hand. In missing someone, you are searching (or craving) for the things that you want that is not (in most instances) physically present. In wanting someone, you are getting the 'missed' chance of having something or someone. Although its sound confusing, the game of missing and wanting is the critical game played by both individual who are supposed to be knowledgeable in manipulating it. Let's put love in the picture to further complicate the topic. In love, missing and wanting is an amber that warmth the relationship. Without it love will wane. Love like all other games, requires manipulation of both missing and wanting. Manipulation requires constant 'revision' of the process without breaking the original rule. It requires the creative use of of 'miss-me-sometimes' and 'want-me-sometimes' skills. It is a constant cycle, that is why its called a process. Going back to the main thesis I stated a while ago. The level of expectation of both individual didn't meet in terms of wanting and missing. There are couple of reasons as of why these happen and it quite mouthful to discuss it in details. What I am trying to point out here is that if both realized that there is skewed difference between the levels of expectation between the two, probably that's the best time for them to talk this matter before everything falls into pieces.